Nathan's Poem

I know I look horrible, but that was after 26 hours of HARD labor. But the picture is of Nick praying right after we had Nathan. The nurses were working on Nathan trying to get his breathing normal.
I've been meaning to post this for 3 months now....
Nick whether you know it or not is pretty talented when it comes to writing. Especially poems!!! He has written me several "love" poems over the years since we been together that I will forever cherish! He has written poems for family members that have passed away and even shared them at their funerals. But my favorite ones he has written are of our children. He wrote two beautiful poems after having our miscarriages. I still can't read either one of them without crying. I will post them at a different time. But this one I'm posting is of the one he wrote right after having Nathan. It is so sweet and it shows the love he has for me and Nathan. Nathan and I had a very difficult delivery and Nick recalls it perfectly with his words. So I hope you enjoy it and next time you see Nick tell him how great you thought it was.


Nathan
“Gift from God”

Honey I’m pregnant mouthed the words of my wife
Could this be real can she even bare life?
But Before I could speak darkness clouded my mind
Of the children I lost and the pain I now hide

Yes I was happy but will it ever be true…
Will she make it to the end, will God see her through?
To deal with the pain I built walls around my heart
You can’t change your past without knowing where to start

I began to smile and nod my head
I must stay strong so I turned and said,
I Love You honey, we will be okay
God is in control what more can I say

Every visit to the doctor was surrounded by fear
Would your little heart-beat, would the ultrasound be clear?
After hearing the good news God filled us with joy
I’ll never forget the words, “You’re having a BOY!!!”

9 months later to the day
We got in the car you were on the way
After we got to the hospital time stood still
This moment I dreamed of suddenly seemed real.

Problem after Problem would soon fill the night
I prayed and prayed everything was right.
Your heart would go from low to high
It was all I could do to not to break down and cry

We soon found out that you were turned wrong
But we didn’t care as long as you were healthy and strong.
The doctors thought mommy would go under the knife
But little did they know the strength of my wife?

As I leaned over to cut your cord
I noticed your body was stiff as a board
The doctor said, “Move out of my way”
They took your body and placed it on a tray.

When you came out, you were not crying at all
So I cried out to my savior please answer my call.
Heavenly father I’m in need of your grace
Touch my son show me your face

As I closed my eyes I began to pray
Lord help my son make it through this day
God give him breath and please make him cry
God give him life I can’t say goodbye.

5 hours later your breathing got right
We held you in our arms all swaddled and tight
God answered our prayers from heaven above
He gave us a son to cherish and love.

I love you Lord I’ll do what I can
To raise this boy a Godly man
Thank you God for this gift of life
Thank you God for my amazing wife

Thank you God for the power of prayer
Thank you God for not leaving us there
Thank you God and to you I live
Thank you God for the life you give

Everything I do, I give you all the glory
Thank you God for Nathan’s story

I prayed for this child, and the LORD answered my prayer and gave him to me (1 Samuel 1:27).

Happy 3 months, Nathan!

What can I say other than I was blessed with the cutest, sweetest, most adorable baby in the world. I know every mom says that, but he is to me! Nathan is growing so fast and learning so many things its mind boggling. I absolutely LOVE staying home with him because I never miss any of his new achievements. He’s got me wrapped around his little bitty finger. It’s been this way since day one; he’s just now figuring it out. I love our little family and one day in the VERY VERY far future I look forward to expanding it. I would love for Nathan to be a big brother to a little brother or sister.

Nathan,

You are no longer a newborn, you're an infant! That’s no big deal to you because you have never been a “true” newborn. You have been pretty much independent from the beginning. You LOVE to explore your new world. Your eyes are always looking for new things to look at. You are such happy baby! Your favorite thing to look at next to your mommy and daddy is YOURSELF :) I don't blame you one bit, because I would stare at myself all day long if I was as cute as you! Your second favorite thing to do is eat your hands. You will soon be getting a little toothy and it’s already driving you crazy. You can't keep your hands out of your mouth, because it’s the only thing that makes you feel better. You were not eating or sleeping as well, but you seem to be coping better now.

Your mommy and daddy thought they were going to be smart and let you sleep in your crib but you had other plans. You wanted to stay close to us even if it meant being squished in your little bassinet. You can't even stretch out all the way, but you wouldn't have it any other way. It is so cute to see you all snuggled and sleeping. Your only 3 months old and have already been through 3 mobiles. You love your mobile so much it was heartbreaking when the first one did not spin. Your daddy tried to "fix" it and then it would not even play the song. So we got a replacement and your daddy still managed to somehow turn the knob to far and broke that one as well. So mommy bought the last one she is ever going to buy and your daddy is not allowed to touch this one. Funny thing is, you seem to like this one the most!

Your favorite time of the day is bath time. You finally figured out how much fun you can have splashing all the water of the tub. Mommy and daddy spend a lot of time cleaning water off the floor, but it’s worth the time just to see that big smile you have on your face. This week we heard your first “true” laugh. Nothing ever sounded so sweet. It brought tears to our eyes and melted our hearts. Now we are trying everything we can to get you to laugh some more. You have even learned to make motor boat sounds with your mouth while making bubbles. It is SO cute! You have so many facial expressions but our favorite one is when you smile 

Your mommy and you have had a lot of scary situations. This month we have encountered two incidents with SPIDERS! You already know how much mommy hates spiders. One almost crawled on your mommy when she was holding you, and she calmly put you down and grabbed a flyswatter and killed that thing ten times over. A week or so later, mommy was feeding you when she saw something crawling on the floor. The spider was so big it probably could have eaten you. Luckily daddy was still home and was able to kill it before it came any closer. You’re going to grow up to be mommy’s little Spiderman!!!

You love to play! You sometimes get up in the middle of the night just so you can get on the floor and play with your toys. Although your mommy and daddy don’t want to get up that early it sure is worth seeing that smile on your face when you bat and pull your toys.

Your play mat is your favorite. You play so hard, that you sometimes forget to take a nap. You can be in the middle of playing, smiling, having the time of your life and instantly start to cry. Mommy will pick you up and hold you and you fall asleep in minutes. You still will not take a long nap; usually between 30 to 45 minutes. Every once in a while you will nap for 2 to 3 hours but we never count on it.

You are SO spoiled, but in a good way. You are slowly becoming your own person. You still look mostly like your mommy, but daddy is slowly coming out of you. You definitely have his eyelashes. They are so long that they are curling. The look you give with those beautiful blue eyes is going to make you an instant heartthrob! You also have your daddy’s personality. All play and no work  Next month is going to bring even more new things. You will get those awful shots again, but also enjoy your first food, cereal!!! We are ALL excited!!!

It’s so hard to believe that last year at this time you were in the beginning stage of growing in your mommy’s tummy. Mommy and daddy did not know it yet, but sure were praying that you were. We would find out a few short weeks later, right before Mother’s Day. Mommy is so excited to be able to spend our second Mother’s Day together, only this time you will be in her arms! Thank you Nathan for making mommy a real mommy, not just one in her heart!

Love,
Mommy and Daddy