This blog is so not a "Shannon" thing. I have done a lot of things in the past year that are not "Shannon" things. I have just had so much happen that I've probably had a nervous breakdown (or something), because I am definetly not the person I use to be. This blog is my way of processing everything. Getting my thoughts out helps me make sense of my situation. For those of you who might read this (it might just be Nick and myself) and not know our story, I will briefly explain... We have lost two babies to miscarriages in a row. The first miscarriage happened on my dad's birthday, October 17, 2008. Our most recent miscarriage happened on New Year's Day of this year. As devestating as both were and still is, they both have very unique stories. I will get into those stories on another blog some other time.
Today is a day worth celebrating, no not because it's Cinco de Mayo, but because we just found out I'm PREGNANT again. I took a pregnancy test first thing this morning and had two lines, with one line being very faint. But as they say, "a line is a line." As happy as we both are, we can't help but think about the past that was not so long ago. I know I will be haunted by the possibilty of another miscarriage everyday. Praying daily for a healthy baby, and for a healthy mommy (me). It's hard to fathom being happy and scared at the exact same time, but thats how it is for us. My due date is January 13, 2011. I had to check to make sure it was not Friday the Thirteenth, we don't need anymore bad luck.
Pregnancy symptoms so far:
Extremely TIRED
A little nausea
Extra bathroom trips (#1 not #2)
Very little cramping
I know these symptoms are about to be kicked into high gear soon. As part of my medical plan to prevent another miscarriage, my doctor has prescribed Prometrium capsules. This is to give my body extra progestorone. The doctors think that my body does not produce enough progestorone to maintain a pregancy. I hope and pray they are right. These capsules are suppose to intensify pregnancy symptoms (so pray for Nick, he will definetly need them).
This blog will not be published for you to see until after I annouce our pregnancy to our family and friends. But when you do finally get to see, please keep us in your daily prayers.
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