Nick and I went to the first prenatal appointment. This appointment was mainly to go over our history. Things like what I'm allergic to, any medical problems past or present. History of deformities in either one of our families. But mostly our pregnancy history. Luckily it was not as bad as I thought it was going to be. We had the same sweet nurse we had our last pregnancy and she remembered us. The nurse also had a miscarriage during her first pregnancy, so she understands what we are going through. I couldn't even get excited about this appointment. Heck, Nick and I can't even get excited about this pregnancy. I feel like we are putting a wall up over our heart just in case our worse nightmare happens again. I know that it will not matter if I'm joyful now or not, because its going to hurt bad either way.
I go back on Wednesday to check my hormone levels to make sure my levels are doubling every 48 hours. Praying extra hard that they are doubling. We got a lot of books and planners and pamphlets to look over. Not sure whether or not I even want to look at them. Last time, i read everything as soon as I got home. I probably will, just so I can stay informed for my future appointments. Speaking of appointments, I'm scheduled on May 26 for my first ultrasound. I will hopefully be 7weeks pregnant, and I PRAY that we will finally get to see our baby's heartbeat. We never got that experience last time.
Sorry if this post sounds kind of depressing. It really was a good appointment and I look forward to future check-ups. As always, keep us in your prayers.
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