Nick and I are so excited to be parents to a precious little boy. Today was just the best day, I did not have to report to work at my usual time of 7am. I got to sleep in til 9:30 and it was great. The best part was waking up and getting ready to go to our ultrasound appointment. The big ultrasound appointment where we would get to find out the sex of the baby. Nick and I prayed last night that the baby would "show" himself. "Boy", does God answer prayers, one of the first shots we got was the "potty shot" and you could tell it was ALL BOY. The ultrasound lasted about 20 minutes and we got to see every part of this baby. The Heart looked perfect and was beating at the usual 152 beats per minute. Doctor said everything looks "perfect," Baby Boy Finch looks like he is developing like he should, exactly what Nick and I wanted to hear and see.
This ultrasound was the best. We got to see how much the baby has changed over the last almost 17 weeks. The first ultrasound we got, it did not look anything like a baby, just a round clump. The second ultrasound, was more baby like, but still hard to tell what was the head and other body parts. This ultrasound there was no doubting what you were seeing. The best part of all the ultrasounds is seeing the little baby's heart beating, so precious.
I absolutely loved seeing the baby move. Even though I tried to get him reved up before we went by drinking orange juice, he still was not moving all that much. He looked like he was swimming, he was kicking his legs and hands. So happy we got some video clips, we will cherish them forever.
Well, since I'm working this summer, and not having much to do at work. I have had a lot of time to search online for various things I would want for the nursery. Prior to finding out the gender, I was looking up bedding for a boy or girl. I picked my favorite for either sex, and now all I got to do is order the bedding. Why am I rushing this: I need to go ahead a pick a color to paint the babies room. Nick and I are going out of town this weekend to celebrate our 5 year Anniversary (Yeah!!!) and my mom is going to paint the room. We had already primed the room prior to conceiving again. Perfect opportunity that I can not pass up. So the room is going to be key lime green. It should be bright and we are excited to finally see that room get some color.
So like I said this week has been awesome and its not over yet. Looking forward to a nice romantic anniversary to Myrtle Beach. Maybe even do some shopping for our "Little boy", or as my mother-in-law says "Little Man" (based on his ultrasound pics, lol).
Tuesday, August 3, 2010
Wednesday, July 14, 2010
Oh Great, SHE found out
Needless to say Nick and I wanted to keep the news of our pregnancy a secret until we knew the risk of miscarriage went down. Yes, there were some that we hated we could not share our news with, because they are the ones we are closest too, and the ones we knew who would be the happiest about this pregnancy. When Nick and I started to tell family, and friends the first question asked is, "well, are y'all telling everybody." Nick and I answer this, "well yes, but there is only ONE person we do not want to find out." You might be thinking what is Nick and Shannon's problem, who would they have a problem with. We knew SHE would find out eventually, but the longer the better for my pregnancy. I don't need any extra outside stress, this pregnancy is already stressful enough. One thing I purposely left out in my blog about my second miscarriage is the behind the scenes drama that was taking place. I am writing this tonight because if you guessed it, yes SHE found out. I was visiting with my mom tonight and came home to a present on my doorstep from this particular PERSON. It was a bag of diapers and a case of lotions and shampoo, etc. You might think, well that was really nice of them, but if you knew this person you would know that it was HER way of telling us that SHE knew. It was a spiteful gift and you will find out why we believe this.
I will keep this persons identity a secret, only because it will only make things worse on me and Nick if we told HER name. I will say she is someone that should have been a little more encouraging and compassionate during our emotional time of losing our second child. I will begin to explain the extra grief this women put us through, during an already grief stricken time in out lives.
Let me tell you again about the day and days following after we found out we would be losing our second baby. Nick and I went into our first ultrasound, not thinking anything bad would come of it. Within seconds of the ultrasound, we knew something was wrong. The ultrasound tech told us the baby no longer had a heartbeat. Your mind can not properly grasp that. I'm thinking first, she is wrong, second, oh well just give it a couple more days and the heart will start back. I could not understand that no heartbeat would mean another miscarriage. After talking with the doctor about my desire NOT to have a D&C that I wanted to wait and let my body miscarry naturally, we finally got to leave to go home and pick up the pieces of our shattered heart.
We called the necessary people and told them the news and of course word got out, which we were thankful for, we did not have to tell everyone ourselves. We got home and updated our facebook status with song lyrics that represented how we were feeling that night. Of course the ones that knew, replied that they loved us, were sorry and were praying for us as well. Something you would expect from the ones who love and care about you. Nick and I made indications about the upcoming miscarriage. The next two days Nick and I trying to go through the flow of emotions posted scripture referencing things like miracles and faith and hope. We were not silent in our desire for God to save our baby and to gives us that miracle. The faith we have in God, gives us the hope that yes God can do anything. I believe in the miracles told in the Bible, if God wanted too, he could make our baby's heart start beating again. That's when this woman started her attack. On Nick's post he wrote the verse Mark 10:27, Jesus looked at them and said, "with man it is impossible but not with God. For all things are possible with God." Nick ended with, still praying for a miracle. This Lady responded, "a miracle would be nice and it is true that it is not impossible with God. God could give your baby life, but I cannot help but ask: Why should you get your baby back when millions of other people don't? Women have their babies literally ripped from their bodies while they scream bloody murder and then they are left to bleed and die. They don't get any condolences, prayer, or any kind of expression of sympathy whatsoever. They believe in God just as much as you, if not more. They didn't do anything to bring it on themselves as some "church" people say. Perhaps you should count yourselves fortunate. Be thankful this is all God has done in this area." I wish the story ended there, but SHE was just getting started. She had an agenda and it was to make Nick and I completely miserable. She was waiting for the perfect opportunity to say things to us that she has waited years to say. I guess she thought oh, well they are already going through so much, now sounds like a perfect time to me to unlease my hatred on them. Needless to say, we have tried our best not to have any contact with this women, easier said then done. It is not healthy nor wise or Biblical for us to put ourselves in a situation to be attacked over and over. Nick and I might not have gotten our miracle from God with saving our baby, but we pray that God would use is powers to heal this women.
I will keep this persons identity a secret, only because it will only make things worse on me and Nick if we told HER name. I will say she is someone that should have been a little more encouraging and compassionate during our emotional time of losing our second child. I will begin to explain the extra grief this women put us through, during an already grief stricken time in out lives.
Let me tell you again about the day and days following after we found out we would be losing our second baby. Nick and I went into our first ultrasound, not thinking anything bad would come of it. Within seconds of the ultrasound, we knew something was wrong. The ultrasound tech told us the baby no longer had a heartbeat. Your mind can not properly grasp that. I'm thinking first, she is wrong, second, oh well just give it a couple more days and the heart will start back. I could not understand that no heartbeat would mean another miscarriage. After talking with the doctor about my desire NOT to have a D&C that I wanted to wait and let my body miscarry naturally, we finally got to leave to go home and pick up the pieces of our shattered heart.
We called the necessary people and told them the news and of course word got out, which we were thankful for, we did not have to tell everyone ourselves. We got home and updated our facebook status with song lyrics that represented how we were feeling that night. Of course the ones that knew, replied that they loved us, were sorry and were praying for us as well. Something you would expect from the ones who love and care about you. Nick and I made indications about the upcoming miscarriage. The next two days Nick and I trying to go through the flow of emotions posted scripture referencing things like miracles and faith and hope. We were not silent in our desire for God to save our baby and to gives us that miracle. The faith we have in God, gives us the hope that yes God can do anything. I believe in the miracles told in the Bible, if God wanted too, he could make our baby's heart start beating again. That's when this woman started her attack. On Nick's post he wrote the verse Mark 10:27, Jesus looked at them and said, "with man it is impossible but not with God. For all things are possible with God." Nick ended with, still praying for a miracle. This Lady responded, "a miracle would be nice and it is true that it is not impossible with God. God could give your baby life, but I cannot help but ask: Why should you get your baby back when millions of other people don't? Women have their babies literally ripped from their bodies while they scream bloody murder and then they are left to bleed and die. They don't get any condolences, prayer, or any kind of expression of sympathy whatsoever. They believe in God just as much as you, if not more. They didn't do anything to bring it on themselves as some "church" people say. Perhaps you should count yourselves fortunate. Be thankful this is all God has done in this area." I wish the story ended there, but SHE was just getting started. She had an agenda and it was to make Nick and I completely miserable. She was waiting for the perfect opportunity to say things to us that she has waited years to say. I guess she thought oh, well they are already going through so much, now sounds like a perfect time to me to unlease my hatred on them. Needless to say, we have tried our best not to have any contact with this women, easier said then done. It is not healthy nor wise or Biblical for us to put ourselves in a situation to be attacked over and over. Nick and I might not have gotten our miracle from God with saving our baby, but we pray that God would use is powers to heal this women.
Thursday, July 8, 2010
Doctors appointment
Got to hear the baby's heartbeat again this afternoon. Still beating strong at around the 150's. Nick and I are so excited, we are really starting to have talks about this baby. Thinking about the future we pray everyday to have with this child. I'm beginning to think about the kind of Mom I want to be, and imagining how great Nick is going to be as a Dad. Although we know our life is never going to be the same (no more sleeping in) we know its for the better. we are happy to make the necessary sacrifices for this child.
Not that it matters either way, we get to find out the gender of the baby in 4 weeks. Then on to painting the baby's room, and looking for those cute little outfits that we can't live without. Can't wait!!!
This past week has for the most part been a good week. Best I have felt since finding out we were expecting. We got a chance to go to the beach for a couple of days and mainly just relax. I did get sick one night out of the blue, because I had felt great prior too. The last day at the beach it was just too hot to be out on the beach, luckily where we stayed, we had a pool!!! God has blessed so much more than what we deserve and I have a feeling things are only going to get better.
I've already started to show a little bit, but it just mainly looks like I have a chubby belly. Will need to go shopping for some clothes soon, Nick should have fun with that.
Not that it matters either way, we get to find out the gender of the baby in 4 weeks. Then on to painting the baby's room, and looking for those cute little outfits that we can't live without. Can't wait!!!
This past week has for the most part been a good week. Best I have felt since finding out we were expecting. We got a chance to go to the beach for a couple of days and mainly just relax. I did get sick one night out of the blue, because I had felt great prior too. The last day at the beach it was just too hot to be out on the beach, luckily where we stayed, we had a pool!!! God has blessed so much more than what we deserve and I have a feeling things are only going to get better.
I've already started to show a little bit, but it just mainly looks like I have a chubby belly. Will need to go shopping for some clothes soon, Nick should have fun with that.
Thursday, July 1, 2010
We've made it to 12 weeks!!!!!
We have made it to 12 weeks!!! I never thought we would get this far. Praise God, I really don't need to say anymore. Only God has made this possible. I pray He continues to give us (baby & mommy) the care we need. I pray that God will raise me and Nick up to be the Godly parents we need to be for this child.
You know you are 12 weeks pregnant when......
1. You think, has it only been 12 weeks and how many more weeks do I have
2. You cry over the stupidest things on TV
3. Even though no one knows your pregnant, you think everyone is looking at your stomach
4. Your clothes are no longer fitting properly and yet you are too small for maternity clothes and you think what am I suppose to do about this.
5. You are already having a tough time sleeping
6. You are having "Hot Flashes"
7. You are hungry, but you don't want anything to eat (nausea)
8. You almost throw-up everytime you brush your teeth, and they stress how important dental care is during pregnancy.
9. You get headaches even when The Husband isn't around :)
Want to wish my mommmy a very Happy Birthday today, I love you!!!!
You know you are 12 weeks pregnant when......
1. You think, has it only been 12 weeks and how many more weeks do I have
2. You cry over the stupidest things on TV
3. Even though no one knows your pregnant, you think everyone is looking at your stomach
4. Your clothes are no longer fitting properly and yet you are too small for maternity clothes and you think what am I suppose to do about this.
5. You are already having a tough time sleeping
6. You are having "Hot Flashes"
7. You are hungry, but you don't want anything to eat (nausea)
8. You almost throw-up everytime you brush your teeth, and they stress how important dental care is during pregnancy.
9. You get headaches even when The Husband isn't around :)
Want to wish my mommmy a very Happy Birthday today, I love you!!!!
Tuesday, June 22, 2010
160+ Strong
Went back to NASH-OBGYN today to see if we can hear the Baby's heartbeat using the Doppler. It was a success, although it took the Doctor a few minutes to actually find the heartbeat. She said the heart rate was in the 160's which is great. So the baby is still doing good, but mommy (me) is not doing good at all. I went to my regular doctor yesterday because I knew I was getting a sinus infection, what I did not know is I also developed ulcers on my throat. Talk about pain. I can't eat, drink, or even breathe without being in constant pain. The Doctor gave me an antibiotic for the sinus infection, but could not give me anything for the ulcers.
When I went to my appointment today I felt worse, so the doctor checked me out to make sure I was not developing pneumonia. She said my lungs sounded clear but gave me a stronger antibiotic to make sure pneumonia did not developed. That's scary. I told her do whatever so I can feel better, and make sure the baby will be ok as well. Feeling more nauseated and I've been getting a lot of headaches as well. But other than that all is well. THANK GOD!!!
When I went to my appointment today I felt worse, so the doctor checked me out to make sure I was not developing pneumonia. She said my lungs sounded clear but gave me a stronger antibiotic to make sure pneumonia did not developed. That's scary. I told her do whatever so I can feel better, and make sure the baby will be ok as well. Feeling more nauseated and I've been getting a lot of headaches as well. But other than that all is well. THANK GOD!!!
Friday, June 18, 2010
What a night!!!!
So far this pregnancy has been pretty good. I can't complain too much. I thought taking the extra Progesterone pills was going to make my pregnancy symptoms more prominent, but so far it has not. Yesterday made exactly 10 weeks, and Nick and I are so excited to have made it this far in the pregnancy. We are counting down the days til 12 weeks, once you get to twelve weeks the chances for a miscarriage drop significantly.
Last night, I started dreaming that I was throwing-up which is very weird, I guess it was one of those crazy pregnancy dreams. The problem though was when I woke up at 3:00 am in the morning and felt like I was going to throw-up. I tried to lay down on my stomach hoping that would make me feel better, but it made it worse. I got up and ran to the bathroom, and had to make a quick decision,, do I throw-up in the toilet or the bathtub. I choose the bathtub, the thought of sticking my head on the toilet was enough to make me throw-up more. Sure enough as soon as I got to the tub, I immediately started throwing-up. If you know me, you know that I absolutely HATE throwing-up and it always makes me cry. I did not handle the situation as graceful as I wanted. I was so loud, it woke Nick up, he did not know what was going on. I think I freaked him out a little bit. I threw-up at least four times back to back, til there was nothing left to throw-up.
All the stomach acid that came up left my throat on fire. After all the excitement was over Nick went back to bed and I went to eat a pack of crackers. I learned my lesson, next time before I go to bed, I'm going to make sure I'm not hungry. It was completely my fault, because I should have known not to go to bed on an empty stomach. My baby let me know very quickly that they were not happy with me for not eating enough before bed.
Other than being extremely tired all the time, this pregnancy has been very good. I've been able to hide it from everybody. Hopefully in two weeks, we will get to tell everybody. Thanking God for His many blessing and for a easy pregnancy so far.
This week I celebrated another Birthday. I'm happy that God has allowed me another year on this Earth, but it was a little bittersweet for me. I never thought I would be celebrating my 26Th Birthday not being a mother. I know I have a baby on the way, but losing two babies already, I should have been celebrating a baby that would have been turning 1 in June as well. My second baby, I should be 7 1/2 months pregnant this month. Its hard to celebrate, when you look and see everything that you should have with you, but was robbed the chance to have that joy. I'm not bitter about losing my two babies, I just see the void and its hard to get overly joyful about holidays and birthdays, though I am thankful for everyone God has given me. I know its complicated.
I'm so thankful to have such an amazing husband that gets me. One that would get up at 3 in the morning and watch their wife puke her brains out. He definitely makes things easier and can always make a joke when I need a laugh. I love him and I know I count on him in any situation.
Last night, I started dreaming that I was throwing-up which is very weird, I guess it was one of those crazy pregnancy dreams. The problem though was when I woke up at 3:00 am in the morning and felt like I was going to throw-up. I tried to lay down on my stomach hoping that would make me feel better, but it made it worse. I got up and ran to the bathroom, and had to make a quick decision,, do I throw-up in the toilet or the bathtub. I choose the bathtub, the thought of sticking my head on the toilet was enough to make me throw-up more. Sure enough as soon as I got to the tub, I immediately started throwing-up. If you know me, you know that I absolutely HATE throwing-up and it always makes me cry. I did not handle the situation as graceful as I wanted. I was so loud, it woke Nick up, he did not know what was going on. I think I freaked him out a little bit. I threw-up at least four times back to back, til there was nothing left to throw-up.
All the stomach acid that came up left my throat on fire. After all the excitement was over Nick went back to bed and I went to eat a pack of crackers. I learned my lesson, next time before I go to bed, I'm going to make sure I'm not hungry. It was completely my fault, because I should have known not to go to bed on an empty stomach. My baby let me know very quickly that they were not happy with me for not eating enough before bed.
Other than being extremely tired all the time, this pregnancy has been very good. I've been able to hide it from everybody. Hopefully in two weeks, we will get to tell everybody. Thanking God for His many blessing and for a easy pregnancy so far.
This week I celebrated another Birthday. I'm happy that God has allowed me another year on this Earth, but it was a little bittersweet for me. I never thought I would be celebrating my 26Th Birthday not being a mother. I know I have a baby on the way, but losing two babies already, I should have been celebrating a baby that would have been turning 1 in June as well. My second baby, I should be 7 1/2 months pregnant this month. Its hard to celebrate, when you look and see everything that you should have with you, but was robbed the chance to have that joy. I'm not bitter about losing my two babies, I just see the void and its hard to get overly joyful about holidays and birthdays, though I am thankful for everyone God has given me. I know its complicated.
I'm so thankful to have such an amazing husband that gets me. One that would get up at 3 in the morning and watch their wife puke her brains out. He definitely makes things easier and can always make a joke when I need a laugh. I love him and I know I count on him in any situation.
Friday, June 11, 2010
9 week Ultrasound
So Nick and I went to the ultrasound we were dreading. We have prayed vigorously about this particular appointment. We had our Pastor pray for us. And the weirdest incident was when one of Nick's coworkers came by and asked Nick if she could pray for him. He of course said yes, and this lady began praying for Nick and his wife and for their unborn baby. Nick and I have not told anyone except our Pastor. The lady said the Holy Spirit told her to stop by and pray for us. She asked the Lord to be with our child and allow the baby to grow to full-term. It brought chills to my arm and it made me cry. God does answer prayers and allows the Holy Spirit to guide you, you just have to willing to follow. I want to personally thank this women for her boldness and for her desire to please the Lord.
Our ultrasound was a success!!!! The baby is measuring right on target and most importantly the baby heart is beating at an amazing 178 BPM!!!! I could not believe it. I was in such a joyful mood, when I went to the bathroom, I forgot to pee in the cup. I felt so stupid, but could not help but laugh at myself. So I had to wait until I had to go again, which thankfully being pregnant that is not very long. I will go in two weeks to hear the heartbeat on a Doppler, just another precaution that Nick and I will definitely do. Why not, another chance to hear that joyful sound of your child's heart beating. Nick and I are slowly taking our wall down around our hearts. We were for the first time able to be happy about this pregnancy. We made it the furthest we have ever been in any of our pregnancies. With God in control, we know we are in good hands.
Now on to announcing this wonderful news of our baby, we are still going to wait til the 12 weeks, just the make sure. We might go ahead and tell our parents, but have not made that decision quite yet.
Our ultrasound was a success!!!! The baby is measuring right on target and most importantly the baby heart is beating at an amazing 178 BPM!!!! I could not believe it. I was in such a joyful mood, when I went to the bathroom, I forgot to pee in the cup. I felt so stupid, but could not help but laugh at myself. So I had to wait until I had to go again, which thankfully being pregnant that is not very long. I will go in two weeks to hear the heartbeat on a Doppler, just another precaution that Nick and I will definitely do. Why not, another chance to hear that joyful sound of your child's heart beating. Nick and I are slowly taking our wall down around our hearts. We were for the first time able to be happy about this pregnancy. We made it the furthest we have ever been in any of our pregnancies. With God in control, we know we are in good hands.
Now on to announcing this wonderful news of our baby, we are still going to wait til the 12 weeks, just the make sure. We might go ahead and tell our parents, but have not made that decision quite yet.
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