So far this pregnancy has been pretty good. I can't complain too much. I thought taking the extra Progesterone pills was going to make my pregnancy symptoms more prominent, but so far it has not. Yesterday made exactly 10 weeks, and Nick and I are so excited to have made it this far in the pregnancy. We are counting down the days til 12 weeks, once you get to twelve weeks the chances for a miscarriage drop significantly.
Last night, I started dreaming that I was throwing-up which is very weird, I guess it was one of those crazy pregnancy dreams. The problem though was when I woke up at 3:00 am in the morning and felt like I was going to throw-up. I tried to lay down on my stomach hoping that would make me feel better, but it made it worse. I got up and ran to the bathroom, and had to make a quick decision,, do I throw-up in the toilet or the bathtub. I choose the bathtub, the thought of sticking my head on the toilet was enough to make me throw-up more. Sure enough as soon as I got to the tub, I immediately started throwing-up. If you know me, you know that I absolutely HATE throwing-up and it always makes me cry. I did not handle the situation as graceful as I wanted. I was so loud, it woke Nick up, he did not know what was going on. I think I freaked him out a little bit. I threw-up at least four times back to back, til there was nothing left to throw-up.
All the stomach acid that came up left my throat on fire. After all the excitement was over Nick went back to bed and I went to eat a pack of crackers. I learned my lesson, next time before I go to bed, I'm going to make sure I'm not hungry. It was completely my fault, because I should have known not to go to bed on an empty stomach. My baby let me know very quickly that they were not happy with me for not eating enough before bed.
Other than being extremely tired all the time, this pregnancy has been very good. I've been able to hide it from everybody. Hopefully in two weeks, we will get to tell everybody. Thanking God for His many blessing and for a easy pregnancy so far.
This week I celebrated another Birthday. I'm happy that God has allowed me another year on this Earth, but it was a little bittersweet for me. I never thought I would be celebrating my 26Th Birthday not being a mother. I know I have a baby on the way, but losing two babies already, I should have been celebrating a baby that would have been turning 1 in June as well. My second baby, I should be 7 1/2 months pregnant this month. Its hard to celebrate, when you look and see everything that you should have with you, but was robbed the chance to have that joy. I'm not bitter about losing my two babies, I just see the void and its hard to get overly joyful about holidays and birthdays, though I am thankful for everyone God has given me. I know its complicated.
I'm so thankful to have such an amazing husband that gets me. One that would get up at 3 in the morning and watch their wife puke her brains out. He definitely makes things easier and can always make a joke when I need a laugh. I love him and I know I count on him in any situation.
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